Crooked Butterfly Podcast
By Brian Chontosh
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Description
This is me, sharing where I'm arriving in thoughts, perspectives, and ideas after a dynamic 21 years serving in the Marine Corps and wrestling with "Who Am I"; authentically, and Who Do I Want To Be" now that the military construct is not forcibly shadowing my life. I've found that Nature and tackling the physical & emotional challenges of ultra endurance adventuring provide more insight and clarity on the why's of my experiences and the where's that I can seek for continued personal growth.
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Keeping Agency & Self Regulation
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Mar 11, 2026 |
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Trading Hate for Hate
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Feb 15, 2026 |
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What's The Lesson In This For Me
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Feb 05, 2026 |
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Doing 'Hard' Is Relative & Needs To Be Purposeful
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Jan 26, 2026 |
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Slow Down & Think; In Circles A Little Bit More
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Jan 19, 2026 |
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Where Did All The Ladies & Gentlemen Go
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Jan 09, 2026 |
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Power Outages, Being OK, & a Good Old Fashioned Apocalypse
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Jan 02, 2026 |
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Headphones & Anonymity
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Dec 12, 2025 |
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36 Hour Fasts
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Dec 06, 2025 |
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Grape Thieves Suck
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Nov 27, 2025 |
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Creating Culture
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Nov 21, 2025 |
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Little Less for A Greater More
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Nov 13, 2025 |
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Tribe, Community, Brotherhood...
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Nov 06, 2025 |
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Do You Have Any Idea Who You're Talking To?
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Oct 30, 2025 |
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Giving Grace to the Human Condition
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Oct 23, 2025 |
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From Spam to 'Consider the Source'
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Oct 16, 2025 |
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Holding the Middle Ground
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Oct 09, 2025 |
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Divided They Will Fall
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Oct 03, 2025 |
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Let's Get Back After It
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Sep 25, 2025 |
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Persistence & the Wolf Spider
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Oct 01, 2024 |
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Thoughts from 1 Year of Sobriety
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Jul 13, 2024 |
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Opinion, Advice, & Counsel
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Jun 01, 2024 |
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Increased Capacity Doesn't Mean Increase Load Required
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Feb 26, 2024 |
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Some Thoughts & Growth from the TN Mile
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Dec 15, 2023 |
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Self Care & Boundaries
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Nov 30, 2023 |
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Expertry and Mastery
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Nov 21, 2023 |
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Performance, Effort, Meritocracy & Mediocrity
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Nov 02, 2023 |
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Book Writing #4
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Oct 20, 2023 |
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Book Writing #3
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Sep 28, 2023 |
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Book Writing #2
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Sep 21, 2023 |
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Book Writing #1
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Sep 14, 2023 |
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Mentorship
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Sep 09, 2023 |
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4th Annual Fundraiser Thoughts
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Jun 20, 2023 |
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Vulnerability, Courage, Tiny Beacons of Light, Championing
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Apr 28, 2023 |
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Optimal Conditions vs the Hard Way
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Mar 11, 2023 |
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Exploring "Winning" w/ Connor
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Mar 03, 2023 |
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The Pain Cave
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Feb 21, 2023 |
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What is Winning
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Feb 16, 2023 |
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Talisker Whisky Atlantic Challenge 2022
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Feb 01, 2023 |
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Being Busy, Essentialism, Know It Alls, & Wholesome TV
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Aug 18, 2022 |
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Self Care Thoughts
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Jul 20, 2022 |
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Project Warman Stuff
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Jul 06, 2022 |
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Wrestling w/ OK
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Jun 21, 2022 |
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Building Wealth
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Jun 09, 2022 |
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Chasing Bigger, Better, More...
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Jun 02, 2022 |
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Back in the Saddle
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May 27, 2022 |
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A Veteran Entitlement Conversation
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Jan 24, 2022 |
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New Year & Holiday Reflection
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Jan 09, 2022 |
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Essential Ingredient Required for Change
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Dec 02, 2021 |
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Courage to be Yourself
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Nov 07, 2021 |
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Recharged by the Good Life
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Sep 16, 2021 |
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Lead, Don't Chase
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Sep 08, 2021 |
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This is Leadership? Pfft.
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Aug 26, 2021 |
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Trust. Trust Who? The Government?
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Aug 18, 2021 |
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Wanting to Get Picked for the Team
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Aug 06, 2021 |
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Reinforcing Consistency & How I'm Wired
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Jul 15, 2021 |
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Evaluating Friendship
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Jul 01, 2021 |
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BFF Fundraiser Decompress
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Jun 23, 2021 |
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Forcing Life & Karma
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Jun 10, 2021 |
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Monsters & Dangerous Men
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May 12, 2021 |
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Self Discipline, Control, & Restraint
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May 05, 2021 |
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On Suicide - This Is Messy
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Apr 28, 2021 |
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Loose Ends Finding a Theme
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Apr 21, 2021 |
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Conversation w/ Connor Warman
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Apr 15, 2021 |
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Just a Little Discipline
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Apr 07, 2021 |
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Filling Voids w/ Antagonists
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Apr 01, 2021 |
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Discrimination, Value Sets, & Mat Fraser
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Mar 17, 2021 |
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Checking In w/ Myself
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Mar 10, 2021 |
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3 Egg Omelet
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Feb 11, 2021 |
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Reflecting on the Good / Accomplished
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Feb 10, 2021 |
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Audacity & Arrogance vs Authenticity?
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Feb 03, 2021 |
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Checking In w/ Diesel Mike
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Jan 27, 2021 |
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Leadership Conversation w/ Alec (Pt 2)
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Jan 20, 2021 |
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Leadership Conversation w/ Alec (Pt 1)
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Jan 13, 2021 |
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Just Sadness
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Jan 07, 2021 |
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"The Social Dilemma"
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Dec 31, 2020 |
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Internal & External Resiliency
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Dec 23, 2020 |
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'The Hard Way' gets borrowed
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Dec 17, 2020 |
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Fighting Convenience
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Dec 16, 2020 |
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America
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Nov 05, 2020 |
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Up & Outta the Hole
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Oct 28, 2020 |
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Just a Little Self-Pity Party
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Oct 21, 2020 |
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Finding Failure 100H
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Oct 14, 2020 |
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Diesel Day & Finding Failure
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Sep 24, 2020 |
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Taking Stuff Off the Plate
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Sep 16, 2020 |
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Feeding the Third Circle
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Sep 09, 2020 |
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Real Time Self Talk
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Sep 02, 2020 |
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From Being Recharged to Max Drain Rate
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Aug 26, 2020 |
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Self Awareness as a Fault
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Aug 12, 2020 |
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Fighting Tasks & Burning Wood
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Aug 06, 2020 |
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Loss of Accountability & Fear of Confrontation
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Jul 29, 2020 |
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A Few Things I Practice
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Jul 15, 2020 |
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Respect & Loyalty
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Jul 08, 2020 |
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Thresholds & Responses
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Jul 02, 2020 |
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Loud & Self Righteous = Red Flag
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Jun 24, 2020 |
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It's All In Your Head
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Jun 17, 2020 |
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Uncertain Times
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Jun 10, 2020 |
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Rebuffering
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Jun 03, 2020 |
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Thoughts Post Memorial Day
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May 27, 2020 |
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Don't Feed the Fox
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May 13, 2020 |
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Machinations of Manipulation & Self Import
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May 07, 2020 |
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How Do You Eat an Elephant?
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Apr 29, 2020 |
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Is It Chatter, or Is It Communication
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Apr 23, 2020 |
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My Week of Self Correction
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Apr 15, 2020 |
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Day One, Dollar Zero
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Apr 10, 2020 |
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Leading During Hardship & Uncertainty
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Apr 01, 2020 |
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Deterrence vs Discipline
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Mar 25, 2020 |
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Just be a Team Player
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Mar 18, 2020 |
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Meaning Making Doesn't Have to be Always Intense
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Mar 11, 2020 |
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Stop Stooping to the Lowest Common Denominator
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Mar 04, 2020 |
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Premeditating Thoughts at the Deathbed
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Feb 26, 2020 |
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Embrace Stress to Empower It
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Feb 19, 2020 |
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Calling Myself Out
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Feb 12, 2020 |
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Leaving a Legacy
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Feb 05, 2020 |
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Mind Your Narrative
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Jan 29, 2020 |
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Maybe It's Just Me, I Suspect Not Though.
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Jan 22, 2020 |
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So... You're Different and Have a Problem?
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Jan 15, 2020 |
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If You Want / Need to be Weak, Go Sit in the Corner
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Jan 07, 2020 |
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Resolutions, Compromise, Calling Out Bullshit, Success
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Jan 01, 2020 |
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Confrontation Default Reset
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Dec 18, 2019 |
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Crooked Butterfly Podcast 2020
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Dec 11, 2019 |
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BigFish Foundation (BFF)
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Dec 04, 2019 |
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'The Hard Way' comments
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Nov 28, 2019 |
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Hey, Tommy Tough Nuts...
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Nov 20, 2019 |
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Filling a Hole or Making it Deeper
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Nov 13, 2019 |
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Toughness through Teamwork
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Nov 06, 2019 |
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The Truth - Because, not If
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Oct 30, 2019 |
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Thoughts from the Cheap Seats
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Oct 23, 2019 |
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The Message isn't about Hunting
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Oct 16, 2019 |
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Self Examination on My Coarse Side of Leadership
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Oct 09, 2019 |
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A Short Conversation on Why, Again.
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Oct 02, 2019 |
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New Quote Relating to Mood & the Moment
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Sep 25, 2019 |
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Life Doesn't Get in the Way, It is the Way
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Sep 18, 2019 |
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Loyalty
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Sep 11, 2019 |
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Throwing a Few Things Out There
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Sep 04, 2019 |
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Delivering an Authentic You
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Aug 28, 2019 |
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What the Airport Teaches Me
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Aug 21, 2019 |
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Riding through a Rough Set
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Aug 14, 2019 |
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Recalibrating Judgment & Criticism
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Aug 07, 2019 |
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Where's the Leadership?
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Jul 31, 2019 |
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Why try so hard to be an Extra?
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Jul 24, 2019 |
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Self Doubt Struggles and Small WIns
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Jul 17, 2019 |
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Family Thoughts
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Jul 10, 2019 |
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Annual Madness Challenge
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Jul 03, 2019 |
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Start w/ Right & Wrong and Work Your Way to Center
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Jun 26, 2019 |
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Holding onto Barriers is Exhausting
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Jun 20, 2019 |
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Response to a comment on Giving It First
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Jun 12, 2019 |
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Longing, Lost Appreciation, & Re-Centering
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Jun 05, 2019 |
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Weak People Suck
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May 29, 2019 |
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The Road Less Traveled
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May 22, 2019 |
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It's Easier to Keep Up, than Catch Up
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May 15, 2019 |
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Being Consistent & Lessons from a Bad Day
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May 08, 2019 |
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Stereotypes, Profiling, and An Eye for Inconsistency
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May 01, 2019 |
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Why the High Road?
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Apr 24, 2019 |
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Playing Dumb as a Strategy
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Apr 17, 2019 |
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Don't let your Mood have Majority Vote
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Apr 10, 2019 |
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Strong Opinions & Loud Voices
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Apr 03, 2019 |
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Reflections from GodZone
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Mar 27, 2019 |
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A ramble on Learning & Growth?
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Mar 20, 2019 |
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Adventure / Ultra Endurance Racing
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Mar 13, 2019 |
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Unpacking "The Box" (part 2)
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Mar 06, 2019 |
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Unpacking "The Box" (part 1)
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Feb 27, 2019 |
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Suffering, Really?
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Feb 20, 2019 |
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What kind of Leader was I?
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Feb 13, 2019 |
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Liars, Cheats, & Thieves
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Feb 06, 2019 |
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Over-Inflated Self Assessment
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Jan 30, 2019 |
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Lead, Follow, or Get Out of the Way
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Jan 23, 2019 |
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A Process to Resilience
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Jan 16, 2019 |
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Forgiving & Forgetting
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Jan 09, 2019 |
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Consistency between Belief, Word, & Action
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Jan 02, 2019 |
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Shifting Efforts & Selfishness
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Dec 26, 2018 |
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Debut Episode
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Dec 20, 2018 |