This Is Actually Happening

By Wondery

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Subscribers: 2007
Reviews: 10

Shandra
 Oct 21, 2020
some stories are amazing, some are clearly interviews with the mentally ill. entertaining either way :)

Jane Esparza
 Oct 20, 2020
I love the stories.


 Aug 1, 2020
just had to get political

td
 Jun 4, 2020
my favorite podcast. real people, their tribulations and healing outcomes.

tracy
 Jan 16, 2019
real people with real stories about the human condition. the BEST podcast I've heard

Description

What if your mother left to follow a cult… or you woke up in a morgue… or if your boat got caught in a storm and began to sink -- what would you do?   This is Actually Happening brings you extraordinary true stories of life-changing events told by the people who lived them. From a man who finds out a celebrity crush isn’t who she seems to a woman stranded in a Mexican desert fighting to survive, these stories will have you on the edge of your seat waiting to hear what happens next.


Episode Date
169: Happenings Vol 2: Kinks & Fetishes - What if you were an Adult Baby Diaper Lover?
00:39:30

“I would do everything I could that had to happen to engage with this object that I needed to do and then I would bury it….And I had to realize at a certain point that it was just not going to work.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits: andrdewwaits.com


Today’s episode featured Maz. His story and came to us by way of Dixie De La Tour of Bawdy Storytelling.


Maz is a regular volunteer, educator, and leader in the kink community in Omaha Nebraska. He and his kink family, House St. James, have run the Sex-positive adult education organization, Omaha Dinner and Demos, for the last 3 years. If you would like more information about Maz, House St.James, or Omaha Dinner and Demos, you can find them all on FetLife at House_St_James.


House St.James: https://fetlife.com/users/8118928

Maz: https://fetlife.com/users/263789

Dinner and Demos group page: https://fetlife.com/groups/119528

 

Special thanks to Sexual Folklorist Dixie De La Tour, Creator and Host of the incredible sex and storytelling series, Bawdy Storytelling. Dixie and Bawdy Storytelling have been running live storytelling events for almost 14 years (and a podcast for 4 of those years), and recently received a ‘Best Erotic Podcast’ Award from Oprah Magazine. You can find out more about Bawdy Storytelling’s podcasts and livestream shows at bawdystorytelling.com.


Listen to the Bawdy Storytelling podcast at  http://bit.ly/bawdypodcast

On Twitter: @Bawdy

On Instagram: @bawdystorytelling

On Facebook:  www.Facebook.com/BawdyStorytelling

On Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/Bawdy

On YouTube : http://bit.ly/BawdyTV


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: fetish, age play, sexually explicit scenes, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

Nov 24, 2020
168: What if you believed you were Jesus Christ?
00:56:00

“It’s like you’ve lost yourself completely, and you’re basically left in a million different pieces.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: psychosis, drug use, demonic themes, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

Nov 17, 2020
167: Happenings Vol 2: Kinks & Fetishes - What if you had a fetish for disgust?
00:37:40

“Once I was able to be in control of what I decide is disgusting instead of having that placed on me, that’s what helped me become friends with the feeling.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

 

Today’s Guest: Gwen

Instagram @bidaily_

Email: bookingoffthecuffs@gmail.com


Gwen was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus. She is also the booking manager for Off the Cuffs.


Off the Cuffs Podcast

Twitter @DickWound

Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink

Website: offthecuffs.org


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: sex, BDSM, vomit play, excrement play, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

Nov 10, 2020
166: What if you didn't have any fear?
00:57:16

“The mind almost has to find a way to prove that it’s not real. This cannot be happening.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com

If you would like to be in direct contact with today’s storyteller for questions or comments, you can email him at aliveandwell11@gmail.com.


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreonhttps://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: mania, violent crime, robbery, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741


Nov 03, 2020
165: Happenings Vol 2: Kinks & Fetishes - What if you were a blind dominatrix?
00:38:26

“In these spaces I, as a vulnerable person, am suddenly given the gift of somebody else’s vulnerability.”


Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Today’s Guest: Mistress Blind. Twitter and Instagram @mistressblind. Email: mistressblind@protonmail.com


Mistress Blind was originally interviewed on the podcast Off the Cuffs, hosted by Dick Wound and minimus maximus.


Off the Cuffs Podcast: Twitter @DickWound. Instragram @DWPodHost or @OCPKink. Website: offthecuffs.org


Support the Show: Support The Show on Patreon https://www.patreon.com/happening


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: violent fantasies, sexual fetish, masochism, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

Oct 27, 2020
164: What if a shocking accusation devastated your family?
00:54:07

“It’s truly such an indescribable feeling…kind of like the walls are closing in on you, like reality is just collapsing.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Today’s episode featured Catherine Cole. You can find out more about her on Instagram @catcole20


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Content/Trigger Warnings: charges of statutory rape and sexual molestation, domestic abuse, explicit language


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

 

Services

If you or someone you know is struggling with the effects of trauma or mental illness, please refer to the following resources.


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-6264

National Sexual Assault Hotline (RAINN): 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

Crisis Text Line: Within the US, text HOME to 741741

Oct 20, 2020
Introducing This is Actually Happening
00:01:33

The uncanny, extraordinary, true stories of events that have dramatically altered the lives of ordinary people; a son is shot by his own father, a woman's sister develops multiple personalities, a man wakes up in the morgue. These are riveting, moving and often haunting stories that will stick with you long after you listen.

Oct 17, 2020
163: What if you grew up in a violent gang?
00:52:22

“Any sense of identity no matter how fake was better than no sense of identity, yet if I don’t have a sense of identity, then who am I as a person?”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: murder, gang violence, death, incarceration, explicit language


Today’s episode featured Quan Huynh. You can read more about Quan’s story in his memoir, Sparrow in the Razorwire - www.sparrowintherazorwire.com. You can also find out more about Quan and his current work at www.quanxhuynh.com and on Twitter, Facebook and Instagram @quanxhuynh


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cyliner Four/Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 06, 2020
162: What if you grew up in a cult?
01:01:07

“I didn’t know what normal was, so everything looked so scary….Everything I was doing I was learning for the time it was like my birth into the world.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: child abuse, sexual abuse, suicide, death, drug use, mental illness, explicit language


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” – Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 22, 2020
161: What if you suffered a shocking loss?
00:47:49

“That feeling…honestly I will never forget it, just your heart dropping into your stomach…it’s unreal.”


Today's episode featured Evan Pestona. If you have any information or resources you feel could help bring justice for Evan and his mother, you can email him at justiceforsteph@gmail.com


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, death, murder, suicide, discriminatory slurs, explicit language


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 08, 2020
Happenings Vol. 1: No Man's Land
01:14:05

Today we launch a new series of bonus content called “Happenings” with three stories of people facing their deepest fears in the unforgiving wilderness of the natural world.


Part 1: What if the desert dried your sorrow?

Part 2: What if the ocean tested your faith?

Part 3: What if a boulder crushed your dreams?


Producers: Andrew Waits, Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Show Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Andrew Waits Website: andrewwaits.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: near-death experiences, explicit language


Today’s episode features: Tiki Mashy, Greg Barnes, and Shaina Maytum

Tiki Mashy is an owner and operator at Cowboy Up Hanggliding in Wharton, Texas. You can find out more about it at cuhanggliding.com

Greg Barnes currently lives in Guam and works at Castle Zion Church (괌 시온성교회) as the youth / English ministry pastor. He is currently turning his story into a book. Greg welcomes anyone contacting him at gregbarnesguam@gmail.com. That’s barns, spelled Barnes.

Shaina Maytum is a writer living in Colorado. You can read her work at shainamaytum.com


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho and Ryan Black

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 01, 2020
160: What if you were assaulted by a stranger in the dark?
00:45:12

“Right in the center of your body there’s this lead heavy ball, and inside of it is an immediate understanding of evil.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual assault, sexual violence, rape, explicit language


Today’s episode features Kira Knight. You can reach Kira at violentcrimesurvivors@gmail.com


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 25, 2020
159: What if someone you love committed a monstrous crime?
00:00:19

“I could live with the nightmares. I could live with the panic attacks. But the thing that was tearing me apart was questioning if everything I know in my life was real at all.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: childhood trauma, parental abuse, graphic violence, murder, explicit language


Engage with the Community: Join the This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Shop at the Store: The This Is Actually Happening online store is now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 11, 2020
158: What if you entered The Void?
01:07:46

“You try to take off your skin to try to get rid of this voice, and it goes all the way down to the bone.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, mental illness, suicide, explicit language


Today’s episode featured Dexter L. Booth. Dexter is the author of the poetry collection, Scratching the Ghost from Graywolf Press, which won the 2012 Cave Canem Poetry Prize, as well as the chapbook Rhapsody from Etchings Press. Booth’s poems have been included in the anthologies The Best American Poetry 2015, The Burden of Light: Poems on Illness and Loss, The Golden Shovel Anthology honoring Gwendolyn Brooks, and Furious Flower: Seeding the Future of African American Poetry. He is a professor in the Ashland University MFA program and a residential faculty member at Paradise Valley Community College where he teaches poetry and English composition. You can find out more about Dexter, his writing and teaching by following him on Instagram @dexter_two_omelettes, or on Facebook or Twitter. You can find his books Scratching the Ghost and Rhapsody on Bookshop.org, Amazon, or wherever books are sold.


Support The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, including today’s sponsor: Park Predators, the podcast.


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed:  “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

Jul 28, 2020
Rebroadcast - #43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths?
00:31:23

"All of the ways we define ourselves are going to be stripped away by illness or the dying process...now who am I?"


Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Today’s episode features Frank Ostaseski


Author of: "The Five Invitations: What death can teach us about living fully”

Website: https://fiveinvitations.com/about-frank-ostaseski/


Content/Trigger Warnings: death, terminal illness, explicit language


You can also support the show by supporting our sponsors.


Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Tibetan Ohm Chant

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jul 14, 2020
Rebroadcast - #93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering?
00:42:25

**This rebroadcast episode originally aired in April, 2017**


“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are...how we will find a way.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io


Today’s episode features Anjan Sundaram

Author of: "Stringer: A Reporter's Journey in the Congo" and "Bad News: Last Journalists in a Dictatorship"


Website: anjansundaram.com

Twitter: @anjansun


Content/Trigger Warnings: war, violence, explicit language


You can also support the show by supporting our sponsors


Join the Community on Facebook: This Is Actually Happening Discussion Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/201783687561039/


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jun 30, 2020
157: What if you couldn't tell anyone?
00:51:05

“The idea that they had plucked me from this terrible life…and it was all going to be sunflowers and rainbows and shit…I just view that as a fantasy.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: parental abuse, sexual abuse, explicit language


Support The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors.

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed:  “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

Jun 16, 2020
156: What if you swallowed 48 bags of cocaine?
00:45:25

“I had to go through having taken everything away from me to come to the conclusion that … you’ll come back a person that’s wiser and a more full, satisfied human.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: drugs, near death, explicit language


Support The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors.

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed:  Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

Jun 02, 2020
155: What if you had to pull the plug?
00:48:17

“When somebody hurts you and then they’re like, ‘now you have to take care of him, you’re responsible for him…’ I didn’t know how to feel.”

 

Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: death, mental illness, explicit language


Support The Show: You can support the show by supporting our sponsors


Episode Sponsors: Simplisafe https://simplisafe.com/


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed:  “Cylinder Four/Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


This Is Actually Happening Store: This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

May 19, 2020
154: What if your mom was murdered by a serial killer?
00:46:07

“I had total grief and sadness and fear and also just disbelief that it happened. But it’s different when you lose somebody who hurt you.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, murder, explicit language


Today’s episode featured Nova Reeves. To find out more about Nova, you can Google her article on the death penalty in the Tacoma Tribune. You can hear her reading poetry on YouTube by searching for Quiet Lightning. You can also get a copy of her zine by emailing her directly at novareeves@gmail.com


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

This Is Actually Happening online store now officially open. Follow this link https://www.teepublic.com/stores/this-is-actually-happening-store?ref_id=9467 to access branded t-shirts, posters, stickers and more from the shop. 

May 05, 2020
BONUS Episode - Tyson Was Abducted - from What Was That Like podcast
01:13:47

Today, I'm introducing the podcast What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson. Featuring real people in unreal situations, What Was That Like covers similar, jaw-dropping stories to This Is Actually Happening, but with its own uniquely fascinating format and style.

Today's show will feature a full episode from What Was That Like titled, "Tyson was abducted," about a man who, walking through a parking lot one night, was jumped by two strangers and thrown into a car with no idea where he was being taken. 

You can find the rest of What Was That Like, by Scott Johnson, on all podcast platforms, or check out the website, at whatwasthatlike.com

Apr 28, 2020
153: What if you wanted to disappear?
00:48:32

“I had this secret inside me that I felt was my one and only friend and companion that took me away from all the pain and anxiety that I had moving through my life.”

 

Producers: Whit Missildine


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Apr 21, 2020
152: What if you were a human shield?
00:53:23

“This fake face I was putting on for everybody was my only sense of normality when my whole life is already changed. I didn’t want to admit that stuff was wrong, and I did it in such a convincing way that the majority of people believed me.”


Producers: Whit Missildine


Content/Trigger Warnings: war, severe injury, gun violence, PTSD, explicit language


Today's episode featured Will Hoover. To find out more about Will, he’s on Twitter and Instagram @WillHooverTV, or you can check his own recently launched podcast about film and technology called Uncovered Cinema.


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Apr 07, 2020
151: What if he made you think you were crazy?
00:48:06

“I was sure that this was his mental illness and not something wrong with me until I started hearing it in my head. And that was when I started to think, 'maybe I’m actually going crazy'.”


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Mar 24, 2020
150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse?
00:52:10

“My earliest memories as a child were fear and anxiety…I was never able to control the situation and that unknown just haunted me.”


Today’s episode featured Arielle Hermanson. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram @arijblige


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Mar 10, 2020
149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?
01:05:35

 “I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit language


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Feb 25, 2020
148: What if you killed someone?
00:59:42

“We have so much less control than we think we do….Death is really close at hand and we do not do ourselves often any favors by forgetting that.”


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Feb 11, 2020
147: What if your best friend was dying?
00:48:13

“It’s much better to try to move forward with your life and accept that things are nebulous, and there are no clear answers.”


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Jan 28, 2020
146: What if you thought your mother was a robot?
00:46:31

“I completely lost touch with reality. You can’t rely on those around you, and you can’t rely on what’s within you. That’s the most terrifying thing in the world.”


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Jan 14, 2020
Best of TIAH #1 – Rebroadcast - #120 What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?
01:05:55

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”


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Jan 07, 2020
Best of TIAH #2 – Rebroadcast – #94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?
00:41:51

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else."


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Dec 31, 2019
Best of TIAH #3 – Rebroadcast – #112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?
00:57:03

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time."


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Dec 24, 2019
145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate?
00:41:05

“I’m the kind of person where I like to know answers. I don’t like secrets I don’t like surprises…I really want to know what brought him to that. I really want to know why.”


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Dec 17, 2019
144: What if you suffered from postpartum depression?
00:51:44

“All those thoughts were going through my head like you’re worthless, you’re a loser, you’re a failure, you can’t be happy, you can’t feel love…just this feeling of profound failure.”


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Dec 03, 2019
143: What if you were seduced into a whole new world?
01:08:32

“Am I at fault? Am I not a victim? Should I not be able to say that because I let it happen? I don’t know if in the human heart there will ever be black and white answers to something like that.”


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Nov 19, 2019
142: What if it happened in broad daylight?
00:48:18

“I didn’t really realize that it was a thing that was happening to me. I don’t really know how to describe that feeling, but it was just so hard to understand.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: violent assault, explicit language

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Nov 05, 2019
141: What if you witnessed a horrific act?
00:31:50

“I just felt something inside of me that was so sickening. It’s just like this point of realization, almost like your biggest fear in that moment had come true.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, explicit language

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Oct 22, 2019
140: What if you were entangled in a web of shame?
00:42:55

“It’s just confusing thinking about even today what I’m supposed to feel about the whole thing…humans aren’t really built to fully understand that kind of relationship.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: bullying, explicit language


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Oct 08, 2019
139: What if your father disappeared?
00:49:46

“The worst thing that anxiety does is make you think that you have control to change something, like if I can constantly be in control of everything then nothing bad will happen.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: missing person, traumatic injury of a child, explicit language


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Sep 24, 2019
138: What if at three months pregnant your world was turned upside down?
00:42:00

“It’s like this weird tunnel of reality collapsing and you want to hold on to where you just were at where none of this happened, but now you have this thing that you have to absorb somehow.”


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Sep 10, 2019
137: What if you were the one to break the silence?
00:44:10

“I don’t know what I was thinking but I just kept feeling like the waves of shame because of the shame I made them feel.”


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Aug 27, 2019
136: What if you had to fight for your life?
00:40:06

“I did have the feeling that someone was gonna come back and do something horrible again after that.”


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Aug 20, 2019
135: What if a minor procedure left you permanently altered?
00:43:56

“My personhood had been shattered into a thousand pieces that I and my family were left to pick up one at a time.”

Today's episode features Olivia Wilder. You can find out more about Olivia in Instagram @oliviaamputeefitness

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Aug 13, 2019
Season 9 Announcements
00:02:40

Announcements for Season 9 of This Is Actually Happening. Includes updates on the release schedule, the new This is Actually Happening store, and more. If you'd like to submit a design for a This Is Actually Happening t-shirt or poster, send your artwork to actuallyhappeningpodcast@gmail.com

Aug 06, 2019
134: What if your singular dream fell to pieces?
00:39:45

“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Today’s episode featured Stefan Weiner. As a musician, he goes by Stefan Alexander and you can hear more about his music on his website at www.stefanalxndr.com, on Instagram @stefanalxndr, or look for Stefan Alexander on any music platform.


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Jun 11, 2019
133: What if your life went up in flames?
00:39:37

“All that traumatized people are really looking for is not a fix-it but more like a validation or acknowledgement that it matters.”


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May 28, 2019
132: What if you were kept from the one you loved most?
00:29:38

“It’s interesting always having this void, knowing that you have something so wonderful that could love you so much and you could love so much that exists out there.”


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May 14, 2019
131: What if a psychotic break split your life wide open?
00:31:57

“I have a fear every single day am I going crazy and I don’t even know it? I didn’t know the things that I was doing and the things that I was saying were so extreme.”


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Apr 30, 2019
130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most?
00:37:49

After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships. 

“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”


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Apr 16, 2019
129: What if your mother left to follow a cult?
00:49:44

From a divided home with parents of two opposing world views, a girl whose mother becomes enamored with a trance channeler must now make sense of her life in the void of abandonment. 


“You’ve got to figure out how to go through the world in a way that feels right to you and that you do the least damage, and that you do the most good. But that path is not always clear.”


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Apr 02, 2019
128: What if your son stabbed your daughter?
00:45:05

Escaping a dysfunctional family background and finally raising a wonderful family of her own, a woman’s son commits a shocking crime that throws everything into chaos.


“Human behavior in general is just unpredictable. You can think you know that a person wouldn’t do this or would do this or wouldn’t be capable of it. And then they do it.”


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 19, 2019
127: What if your drive for perfection became your fatal flaw?
00:32:30

Heading to college as a star athlete from a protective family, a man’s perfectionism and drive for self-control leads to a downward spiral.


“After like looking in the mirror saying like wow I fucking like hate myself right now…as I got more upset and as time progressed I would go deeper deeper deeper.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho


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Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Episode Sponsors:  ThirdLove, Uber, CBS/The Good Fight


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Mar 05, 2019
126: What if your family was consumed by an unthinkable act?
00:52:04

Growing up Jehovah’s Witness and then setting out to form an identity of her own, a woman reconciles the silences of her loving and devoted family with an unthinkable act that throws everything into question.

If there was a note…or just anything that would give us a single clue about it…but ultimately I don’t know like I’m never going to know why.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors: Poshmark, Uber, Robinhood

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Feb 19, 2019
125: What if you left everything you had ever known?
00:44:14

“It came along with this complete obliteration of everything I had ever believed and been taught and every moral that I was that I had within me.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors: Third Love, Uber

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/


Feb 05, 2019
124: What if you transitioned into an alternate reality?
00:48:32

“It’s almost as if like I could feel my whole self just changing at this point and just changing in the way that I trust people…and questioning myself and everything.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors:

Poshmark, Robinhood


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Jan 22, 2019
123: What if you refused to be annihilated?
00:58:55

“I believe that people like me people that have experienced trauma, I think we’re the ones that need to save the world…we’re the ones that actually know everything about innocence.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors: ThirdLove, Care/Of and Poshmark


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Jan 08, 2019
122: What if you found a real Hollywood romance?
00:52:09

“If I have to go on based what I found out, I feel like maybe my whole entire relationship was just a fantasy.”


Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Today’s episode features Brittani Louise Taylor whose memoir “A Sucky Love Story” contains deeper details about her experience.

You can find her book at: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1642930008

You can also check out her YouTube channel at: https://www.youtube.com/BrittaniLouiseTaylor


Episode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com/happening


Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” – Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Dec 11, 2018
121: What if your favorite celebrity had a crush on you?
00:35:00

“I’ve lived long enough existing in that gray area of not really knowing that maybe I will live the rest of my life not really knowing.”


Episode Producer, Editor: Nigel Coutinho www.nigelc.info

Show Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors:

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Nov 27, 2018
120: What if you had Dissociative Identity Disorder?
01:05:51

“I don’t really remember not having different parts…I just thought that everybody had different quote unquote people inside them.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Water” – Johannes Welsch

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)  @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 13, 2018
119: What if you suddenly felt like a werewolf?
00:48:11

“It’s like trying to go into like a dark cave with a rope attached to you so that you can find your way back and then losing that the end of the rope.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsors: Quip www.getquip.com and Home Chef www.homechef.com

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” and “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 30, 2018
118: What if you uncovered the family secret?
00:54:22

“The first thing that I felt was invaded, like I physically wanted out of my skin. I didn’t know who the other half of me was….My whole body was crawling and I just wanted out.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Today's episode features Jaclyn Baxter. You can find out more about her story on her blog: https://bit.ly/2xIS2SO

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 16, 2018
117: What if you didn't know what was wrong with you?
00:50:51

“Not knowing, not having control over my body, and not having control over the narrative of everyone around me…it’s the worst feeling to have to go through this by yourself.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Union Flow” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 02, 2018
116: What if the Devil was battling for your mind?
00:41:36

“What I feared the most was that these episodes would continue to increase until that’s the world I was living in, in this other nonsensical world completely detached from reality.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Episode Sponsor: Daily Harvest: daily-harvest.com

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Wake Up” - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 18, 2018
115: What if your son went missing?
00:55:02

“It’s not that I understand why this happened, but understanding that you think you know what’s going on, but you don’t. You think you have control but you don’t.”

Today's episode features Gina Whalen. If you'd like to help fund her son Izzy's Little Free Libraries, you can donate at https://www.gofundme.com/4t3di48

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” – Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Sep 04, 2018
114: What if her ex-boyfriend tried to kill you?
00:49:38

“All of a sudden within a hundred meters of your house that’s where the worst thing happens and suddenly the world becomes different…you can’t go back to who you were.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Re-Entry” – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/



Aug 21, 2018
113: What if you survived a genocide?
00:49:37

"No one can even understand. You can't measure the magnitude of that pain. You can't measure the pain that we went through."

Producer: Whit Missildine

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Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie; "Water" - Johannes Welsch

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Aug 07, 2018
Season 8 Announcements
00:03:11
Announcements for the upcoming 8th Season of This Is Actually Happening, starting Tuesday August 7th, 2018. 
Jul 31, 2018
112: What if a murderer appeared at your bedroom door?
00:56:39

"What happened to me is one of those things where people say, like, 'that could never happen to you.' So now once that happened, it's like well anything can happen to me at any time." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic. Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 01, 2018
111: What if you had to relearn who you are?
00:38:02

"It put everything that I thought about myself into question...I didn't know what I believed. I didn't know what was real, what was fake." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 18, 2018
110: What if everything turned into mayhem?
00:48:50

"It was absolutely like a nightmare. At the same time you're realizing you're never going to wake up from this nightmare because this is real life." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 03, 2018
109: What if you were sideswiped into a whole new world?
00:36:43

"I didn't know what the real world was. I wasn't quite oriented...I can't describe it." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 20, 2018
108: What if you didn't know what they would do to you?
00:37:10

"When the people that are doing this to you look as scared as you are it kind of adds to the fear and to the chaos and to the 'you don't know how this is going to end' feeling." Producer: Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 07, 2018
107: What if the pain wouldn't go away?
00:30:45

“If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.” Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “To Speak of Solitude” - Brambles Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 20, 2018
106: What if you had to fight to be yourself?
00:49:15

"We don't have growth unless there's pain, and I needed that time to hit rockbottom, so that I could look for a solution." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening You can follow today's guest, Patricio Manuel, on Instagram @team_pat_manuel Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 06, 2018
105: What if your deepest fear was your greatest pleasure?
00:49:50

"Those weird moments of tension...that moment of uncertainty but impending doom...I don't think anything really ever matched that." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Featured Guest: Dick Wound You can find Dick's Podcast "Off the Cuffs: A Kink and BDSM podcast" on your podcast app. You can follow the show on Twitter and Instagram @OCPKINK. You can also follow Dick on Twitter @DickWound Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro  www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 23, 2018
Best of TIAH #1 - Rebroadcast - #79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?
00:36:00
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I have been releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We finish up the countdown today, coming at #1 "What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?" “It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
Jan 16, 2018
Best of TIAH #2 - Rebroadcast - #67: What if you woke up in the morgue?
00:19:55
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #2 "What if you woke up in the morgue?" "Only thing I knew was blackness, that's all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
Jan 10, 2018
Best of TIAH #3 - Rebroadcast - #63: What if another realm moved through you?
00:28:49
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #3, "What if another realm moved through you? "I was completely lost in, I don't even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Follow Us on Instagram: actuallyhappening Today's sponsor: HelloFresh.com. Listeners to this show can receive $30 off by going to HelloFresh.com and entering the offer code "actually30" This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
Jan 04, 2018
Best of TIAH #4 - Rebroadcast - #68: What if your sister had five personalities?
00:31:22
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page (@actuallyhappening) asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in mid January. We continue the countdown today, coming at #4 "What if your sister had five personalities?" "I walked on eggshells every day....the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
Dec 28, 2017
Best of TIAH #5 - Rebroadcast - #89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?
00:43:37
This fall I conducted a poll on our Instagram page asking fans of the show to vote on their favorite episodes. As promised I will be releasing the top 5 episodes over the holiday break until we resume with new episodes in midJanuary. Without further ado, we begin the countdown today, coming at #5 "what if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?" "The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Additional Sound Recording: Mason Kessie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf@rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/
Dec 21, 2017
104: What if you woke up to a loud bang?
00:45:21

“There is no answer, I’ll never get my apology…I’ll never get my closure.” Producers: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.org Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Cylinder Four” – Chris Zabriskie This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black To help Lisa Zaid rebuild her home after the Thomas Fire in California, please donate at: www.gofundme.com/help-the-zaid-family-rebuild

Sponsor: BarkBox. Listeners to This Is Actually Happening get a free month of BarkBox deliveries when you go to BarkBox.com/actually. Sponsor: HelloFresh.com. Listeners to This Is Actually Happening get $30 off at HelloFresh.com when you enter the promo code: actually30. Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negrowww.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 12, 2017
103: What if you had a ten year nightmare?
00:44:42

"The hardest part is that I still don't have any answers...what came into my house that night?" Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - TIpper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 28, 2017
102: What if your origins were a mystery?
00:37:24

"I walk around and there's still kind of like an emptiness. For all I know I could be a government experiment....but part of it is kind of exciting because I think, my father could be anyone." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io This episode features Jeremy Krupp (Aka, Hugh's Beaumont). You can find his music on Soundcloud at: https://soundcloud.com/hughsbeaumont Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 14, 2017
101: What if you sacrificed yourself for your country?
00:46:38

"When you're on deployment, your body's in a different place. So when I got back home my body knew I was safe, so that's when my body shut down on me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf@rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 31, 2017
100: What if he wouldn't let you leave?
00:52:29

"I just didn't feel like a person, I didn't feel like I was a being walking on this planet a lot of the time." Producers: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 17, 2017
99: What if you kept getting back up again?
00:40:24

"Life will try to take you out itself...When I look back at this situation, people don't even know that I go through the s**t that I go through." Producers: Whit Missildine & Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 29, 2017
98: What if you were an incest survivor?
00:53:03

“How can you know who you really are when from your earliest memories you have just been a vessel for someone else’s needs and desires and control and violence?” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 17, 2017
97: What if you were a white supremacist?
00:45:09

"I look around at my life and how it is sort of a metaphor for what I think the future could be for the American people." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 01, 2017
96: What if you went to the dark side?
00:41:00

"To enter into nonexistence, to enter into emptiness, into nothingness, is that space from which all arises, from which new birth comes." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Featuring: Albert Flynn DeSilver https://www.albertflynndesilver.com/ Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 18, 2017
95: What if you were sent away for re-education?
00:51:56

"You don't know up from down. You don't know left from right. You don't know right from wrong. All you know is that you do not want to be wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine and Lisa Zaid - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 03, 2017
Season Seven Announcements
00:02:50
Updates and announcements about Season Seven of the This Is Actually Happening podcast. First Episode Launch for Season Seven: July 25th, 2017 Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.org This Is Actually Happening Team: Whit Missildine, Lisa Zaid and Ryan Black Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/
Jul 21, 2017
94: What if the worst thing that could ever happen to you already had?
00:41:30

"It’s surreal. It’s like a movie. It’s like it’s not even happening to you it’s happening to someone else." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jul 21, 2017
93: What if you witnessed the limits of human suffering?
00:42:25

“It’s in these places that you begin to see the limits of human capacity – how resilient we are...how we will find a way.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Featuring: Anjan Sundaram Website: anjansundaram.com Twitter: @anjansun Author of: "Stringer: A Reporter's Journey in the Congo" and "Bad News: Last Journalists in a Dictatorship" Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 13, 2017
92: What if they told you the monsters were real?
00:41:39

“Everybody learns at like 12 or 13…what is real and not real, and I did not get a chance to learn that.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 29, 2017
91: What if you received special messages?
00:33:25

“You start making alternative meanings out of everything.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 09, 2017
90: What if you had a breakthrough insight about the human condition?
00:36:30

“I don’t know why that was a fear of just not having control over me…over what I was going to do.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Union Flow” – Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 22, 2017
89: What if you spent 15 hours on the edge of sanity?
00:42:37

"The rules of reality were changing, and I was trying to get acquainted with these new rules." Producer: Whit Missildine - http://thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - http://ryanblack.io Additional Sound Recording: Mason Kessie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 09, 2017
88: What if you survived war and poverty in Colombia?
00:37:25

"I pictured this little girl inside of me that was not protected." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 25, 2017
87: What if you were hunted by the Japanese mafia?
00:38:46

"This might be the beginning of my last few minutes on the planet." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Original Score & Sound Design: Ryan Black - ryanblack.io Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 10, 2017
86: What if you had always wanted a different mother?
00:34:28

"What I felt like I needed at any given time in my life, she just couldn't give me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 20, 2016
85: What if you had bipolar disorder?
00:31:27

"I had 20 years of living my life as the person I knew I was, and then I had this episode that was totally different from that person." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Valley Station" - Accou Links to Accou: accou.bandcamp.com/album/two-stations Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 01, 2016
84: What if you staged a dramatic rescue?
00:26:58

"What is the impetus that makes you feel you have to do that thing? I don't know what that little magic piece is, but it was there." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Slumberia" - unbeknown Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 08, 2016
83: What if your past was an unsolved mystery?
00:38:07

"Everything now is just a partial truth. We're never going to know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 25, 2016
82: What if you lived your life in exile?
00:26:14

“You lost your country, you lost your family, you lost your identity….and you didn’t know what to do.” Produced by: Tom Henley and Whit Missildine thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Resister" - Mama Dang Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 11, 2016
81: What if you lived your life as a ghost?
00:36:31

"It's weird to think that there's a place in your brain that's a cradle for the soul and it's cracked." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Valley Station" - Accou Link to hear more by Accou: https://accou.bandcamp.com/album/two-stations Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 30, 2016
80: What if your life was rudely interrupted?
00:32:34

"It would have been so easy for me to give up and many people in my situation would have given up." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Website for Rudely Interrupted, the band, is: www.rudelyinterrupted.com Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2016
79: What if the happiest place on earth was your worst nightmare?
00:33:34

“It’s almost like you can’t stand the meaninglessness of the situation, and so you justify it by saying ‘well this must be all my fault.’” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 01, 2016
78: What if you narrowly escaped with your life?
00:42:17

"It took me a long time to feel even like a person again." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 18, 2016
77: What if you followed a singular dream around the planet?
00:32:26

“It’s nice not knowing exactly where you are all the time” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Aug 04, 2016
76: What if you couldn't remember the worst event of your life?
00:29:31

"The challenge of trying to think of my life in a linear narrative is impossible." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jul 19, 2016
75: What if you were kidnapped by a police officer?
00:30:38

"I look at that girl now and I really don't even feel like she was me." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 12, 2016
74: What if you faced a series of unfortunate events?
00:24:59

"I had such a 'Leave It To Beaver' childhood and then you're kind of flung into all this chaos and you realize 'wow, I didn't live in the real world.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 22, 2016
73: What if your father was lost in a shipwreck?
00:21:00

"It was like a nightmare that could not be our own...It's crazy to think that this actually happened to the people that we know." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 01, 2016
72: What if you survived a shipwreck?
00:30:54

"We were all having so much fun and then just 'bam' like that everybody's gone." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 15, 2016
71: What if your mother tried to cut her heart out?
00:30:10

“You always feel like if your parent ever leaves you on Earth, it’s never going to be by their own hand.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 25, 2016
70: What if you had a mind-blowing affair?
00:27:50

"I felt like a celestial axe had come down and split my skull in half." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music 1: "Brethren Arise" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 03, 2016
69: What if the worst case scenario came true?
00:31:43

"It's pretty devastating to find out that what you thought you knew was completely wrong." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Five" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 21, 2016
68: What if your sister had five personalities?
00:30:24

"I walked on eggshells every day....the only way I could survive was to be able to detect which one of these personalities I would be dealing with that day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 07, 2016
67: What if you woke up in the morgue?
00:18:57

"Only thing I knew was blackness, that's all I saw. Cuz everything went dark and I was in a whole new world." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 03, 2015
66: What if your father went missing?
00:27:53

"I'm just thinking 'oh, okay...I'll just sit there and be confused.'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 11, 2015
65: What if you were irreversibly violated?
00:27:07

"Imagine in your mind when you can't stand to be around you. That's like unimaginable, but I got through that." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 30, 2015
64: What if you were a fake priest in Japan?
00:21:57

"I'm like 'oh man...what am I doing here?'" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-Entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 13, 2015
63: What if another realm moved through you?
00:25:58

"I was completely lost in, I don't even know what the realm is called, this other spiritual realm, and I was grasping to be grounded." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 24, 2015
62: What if you went on the strangest trip?
00:26:56

"I had no idea what had just occurred and why....So I just hid there and waited and waited for what felt like an eternity." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 08, 2015
61: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part Two
00:27:50

"I still don't know what I want it to mean or if I want it to mean anything." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jul 02, 2015
60: What if oral sex triggered a near death experience?: Part One
00:26:12

"Anytime I felt off or bad or anything, I would immediately freak out....it would just spiral out of control every single time." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "The Dark Glow of the Mountains" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jun 09, 2015
59: What if you couldn't control your thoughts?
00:23:52

"Like a record player, stuck in a loop all day, every day." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 22, 2015
58: What if you were pronounced dead at age 12?
00:20:51

"You're not supposed to recover from being dead...this is as ultimate as it gets, right?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 08, 2015
57: What if your husband had a death wish?
00:24:22

"I feel like I'm a survivor on this Earth and everybody's got everything and I have to fight so hard to get it." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 24, 2015
56: What if you touched the spirit world?
00:23:23

"There's so much more to the bigger picture...and we'll never understand it until we cross over." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Ambient Theme #1" - Steve O'Brien Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 16, 2015
55: What if reality suddenly fell apart?
00:25:42

"It's like when your computer reboots...that's sort of what happened to my brain, and then everything on the hard drive gets wiped." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 20, 2015
54: What if you lost a high speed chase?
00:26:35

"This is not just a fantasy. This is not just a joke, like the rest of my life had become. This is real." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 26, 2015
53: What if September 11th changed everything?
00:24:52

"I have no connection with who I was in 2001...don't know him." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Cylinder Four" - Chris Zabriskie Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 11, 2015
52: What if you found yourself in a dark, strange land?
00:20:18

"Mother nature tells us what to do, not the other way around." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Wake Up" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 29, 2015
51: What if your roommate had a deep dark secret?
00:22:50

"His face was everything that I was angry about." Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Union Flow" - Spuntic Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 13, 2015
50: What if you were not supposed to see this?
00:20:16

“I’m not supposed to be seeing this. Like, there’s a crack somewhere. There’s something wrong.” Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: “Water” - Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 19, 2014
49: What if you were shot by your father?
00:28:32

"I remember blanking out, dazed....I felt like I was in a tunnel."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

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Content/Trigger Warnings: violence, parental abuse, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Wake Up" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

May 06, 2014
48: What if you went from riches to rags?
00:20:11

"I didn't even understand what had happened, how I lost everything."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: drug abuse, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” - Chris Zabriskie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 22, 2014
47: What if your wife hung herself in the garage?
00:18:56

"It was just this sense of like an emotional atomic bomb go off in your head.”


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Water" - Johannes Welsch

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Apr 08, 2014
46: What if your wife ran you over?
00:16:54

"You can never really tell what a woman's been through if you don't ask the right questions."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Lumien" - Jari Pitkanen

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 24, 2014
45: What if your husband led a secret life?
00:22:58

"The man that I loved is no more. It's almost like, this person died, but is still living."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Union Flow" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Mar 11, 2014
44: What if you delivered seven thousand babies?
00:21:25

"Its pretty hard to have a down day when you touch the beginnings of life."


Producer: Whit Missildine


Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening

Website: thisisactuallyhappening.com


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Re-entry" - Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Feb 25, 2014
43: What if you witnessed a thousand deaths?
00:30:29

"All of the ways we define ourselves are going to be stripped away by illness or the dying process...now who am I?"


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: Tibetan Ohm Chant

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Feb 11, 2014
42: What if you gave up everything for love?
00:23:25

"Everything is temporary if you give it enough time."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Wake Up" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 28, 2014
41: What if you were supposed to be on that plane?
00:16:33

"It was literally an out of body experience. Like, it wasn't me who was looking at the screen."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Chop it Up" - Squirm Orchestra

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Jan 13, 2014
40: What if you came out to your wife at age 37?
00:22:55

"I have begun the process for some years of decolonizing the mind, but I have a long way to go."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Slumberia" - unbeknown

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 09, 2013
39: What if you married someone you knew only 10 days?
00:23:25

"We screw up, and that's how we find our way."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Phylotaxis" - Squirm Orchestra

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Dec 03, 2013
38: What if you were delivered by the Holy Ghost?
00:19:40

"When things don't make sense to me, I don't like it. So, to have something like this obviously not make sense to me....But it happened."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Union Flow" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Nov 11, 2013
37: What if your dad started dressing as a woman?
00:15:24

"It was one of the first times I realized, okay, there's a whole other world of things that are possible now because of this."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 28, 2013
36: What if you lost a fiance and lover to a wave?
00:25:38

"I could not look at the ocean, because when I look at it, it just seemed like an enemy to me."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Rain Makes Rain" - Tardiss

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Oct 14, 2013
35: What if you didn't go outside until 6th grade?
00:21:01

"They were saying, you're too American for us to deport you....But you're not American enough for us to give you a passport."


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Content/Trigger Warnings: parental abuse, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Wake Up" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 27, 2013
34: What if you spent 4 years in solitary confinement?
00:22:04

"After crossing that line, hope was born in me. And this would make all the difference in the world."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: prison, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Union Flow" - Spuntic

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
33: What if you left Wall Street to find true purpose?
00:20:55

“And that was essentially the crowbar that kind of flipped the whole world view on its head.”


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
32: What if you lived through the Sri Lankan civil war?
00:20:24

“Statistically, you’re going to survive this….but it’s the terror of not knowing.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: war, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
31: What if your newborn baby never stopped crying?
00:21:58

"It's hard to fall in love with somebody that you can't get to know."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Snow Capture” - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
30: What if you were raided by pirates?
00:21:45

"I can imagine now, as a father....I can imagine what he feels like."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
29: What if you had sex with over 900 people?
00:27:20

"I've come to a place where I don't believe in a God that's less compassionate than I am."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexually explicit scenarios, explicit language


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music Bed: “Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
28: What if you were lost in the jungle?
00:15:39

"That is the cutting edge. That is the true cutting edge - that moment."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Bliss Out” - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
27: What if you survived a deadly plague?
00:20:27

"Somehow, some way and for some reason, I have thus far survived it. I don’t what that means."


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Content/Trigger Warnings: HIV/AIDS, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "However Dark It Be” - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
26: What if you were a nurse for hardened criminals?
00:16:02

“When you’re looking for a sign, you reach a point, and when you’re ready you’ll take anything as a sign. And I reached that point.”


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: " Irsen’s Tale" – Kai Engel

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
25: What if you rose from the ashes of addiction?
00:23:08

"And the why question...I suppose there is an answer to the why, and it has no interest to me any more."


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Content/Trigger Warnings: alcoholism, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
24: What if your mom kicked you out on the streets?
00:14:57

"I still smile, I still laugh...because I feel like nothing's gonna knock me out."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Phylotaxis” - Squirm Orchestra

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
23: What if your stepchild was kidnapped?
00:19:14

"Still to this day I question, because what mercy is there in that?"


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Content/Trigger Warnings: abuse, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Water” – Johannes Welsch

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
22: What if your mom had Paranoid Personality Disorder?
00:17:03

"Your family becomes normal no matter how weird it is."


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Snow Capture" - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
21: What if you had a psychotic break at age 17?
00:17:16

“I was this other person….and what I saw my real me as is the person I used to be and it would sneak up on me and see what I was doing behind my back.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, psychosis, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Bliss Out" - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
20: What if you were a white school principal in 1968?
00:18:30

“Nothing I learned at University taught me how to handle this kind of situation, or any of us who were there.”


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Not for Nothing” – Dan Gross

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
19: What if you suffered from Tourette Syndrome?
00:17:24

"I just felt like my brain told me that I had to do it."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Bliss Out” - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
18: What if you were hanging off a 600 ft waterfall?
00:17:34

"It could just be over, all of a sudden, in a second."


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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "To Speak of Solitude” – Brambles

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com

Sep 14, 2013
17: What if you were given 48 hours to live?
00:18:38

"I'm just so clear that nothing else is promised, other than right now."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: cancer, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
16: What if you became a Blood Sorcerer?
00:19:17

"I woke up and I was just like, wait a second, I feel whole again."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Irsen’s Tale” – Kai Engel

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
15: What if your dad died on your 10th birthday?
00:18:31

"It's always going to put me in a strange place...A place I can't articulate."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Not for Nothing” – Dan Gross

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
14: What if you learned how to swim at 43?
00:12:50

"It was a huge revelation...It was what we call the 'Aha' moment."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Rain Makes Rain” - Tardiss

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
13: What if you got a job transporting dead bodies?
00:11:07

“How the fuck did I get here?”


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: graphic death, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "However Dark It Be” - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 14, 2013
12: What if your dad wasn't your real dad?
00:16:52

"I was always semi-conscious that, okay, I'm gonna play this off...but deep inside, I don't really belong here."


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Let Down" - Genie Love (Radiohead Cover)

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
11: What if you didn't believe in belief itself?
00:15:07

"If you really want something to be true, that's when you have to question it."

Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Ultra Deep Field” – Stellardrone

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
10: What if you quit your job and lived on garbage?
00:15:15

"It's pretty liberating....just saying 'fuck it'"


Producer: Whit Missildine


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Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: “Rubbish Hummingbird” - LuWorm

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
9: What if you had your first kiss at 27?
00:16:05

"If I had chosen to participate in my life a decade earlier, I would be a completely different person than I am now."


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Snow Capture" - Nasienie

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
8: What if you were falsely accused of pedophilia?
00:19:11

"Yeah I struggle with that question...Why?" Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com Instagram: @actuallyhappening Music: "Water" – Johannes Welsch Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
7: What if you lost your sense of smell?
00:16:04

"For the first time this year...I smelled a person, for one day."


Producer: Whit Missildine


thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Progression" - Jessica Styler

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 13, 2013
6: What if you weren't afraid to die?
00:09:10

"Oh no, I'm not afraid of dying, I'm afraid of living."


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: Tibetan Ohm chant

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 12, 2013
5: What if you worked in a remote African hospital?
00:19:14

"It again became clear that I didn't know what I was talking about."


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Rain Makes Rain" – Tardiss

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 12, 2013
4: What if your mom died on Christmas Day?
00:13:47

"When life suddenly throws something at you like that...Now I'll believe anything. You tell me anything, I'll be like 'sure, why not.'"


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: death, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "To Speak of Solitude" – Brambles

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 12, 2013
3: What if you used to speak in tongues?
00:15:05

"I want to understand my own brain."


Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Instagram: @actuallyhappening


Content/Trigger Warnings: explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Music: "Irsen’s Tale" – Kai Engel

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

Sep 12, 2013
2: What if you were an alcoholic at age 9?
00:18:19

"The one that wins is the one you feed the most"

Producer: Whit Missildine - thisisactuallyhappening.com

Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, substance abuse, explicit language

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Music: "Water" – Johannes Welsch

Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper 

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro)@eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/


Sep 12, 2013
1: What if your boyfriend lit himself on fire?
00:12:42

"We're still here. What part are we playing in all this?"

Producer: Whit Missildine

thisisactuallyhappening.com

Content/Trigger Warnings: suicide, mental illness, explicit language

Music: "Cat Wearing Glasses" – Lee Rosevere

Intro Music: “Illabye” – Tipper 

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/

You can support the show by supporting our sponsors, or through direct contributions on Patreon at https://www.patreon.com/happening

Sep 12, 2013